From Hurt to Healing

Have you ever needed God to speak to you so bad that all you wanted to do was to see his face? If you could see his face, you would have all the answers? I was at that point when our marriage got turned upside down. I kept telling my husband and parents, ” I just need to see Jesus’s face; if I could stand in front of him, I would know what I was supposed to be doing.” I probably should have used my words differently because my parents came and did an intervention at my house because to see God’s face, you need to go to heaven, and they thought that could be my intention. They knew I was sad, not sleeping, not eating, and cried most of the time. That was not where my thoughts were, but I wanted to hear God’s voice and for him to give me the answers. If he told me what to do, I knew I would be fine whether our marriage made it out of this or not!
When my parents were at my house talking with me, my mom said, “Rachel, you should pray like this,” and she said the Lord’s prayer with me. I had said this prayer many times in my life and had it all around my house, but I understood it for the first time in my life. It hit my heart like nothing had ever done before. The scripture reads.
Matthew 6: 9-13
” Our Father in heaven, Hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come. Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.”
NKJV
It was like a light turned on for me, and I knew what this prayer was saying. You are praying to your parent in heaven, your “Abba.” He is completely pure ” Hallowed.” We are asking God to do it his way here on earth. Ways we can not do, only God can do. Not only are we asking him to do it His way, but that his will be done. Not our will but God’s will. This means we are okay with how it turns out as long as it’s God’s will. We are asking for forgiveness of our sins and forgiving others of theirs. We are no greater than the one that sins against us. The bread is God’s word, the food for our soul. Not the bread at a table. The bread at the table will never satisfy us. Only God’s word does. Once I understood this, my soul calmed down. I started to cry less, I got sleep, and I could find joy again. It changed me, and I would have the opportunity to pray this prayer a few weeks later with my husband.
A few weeks would pass, and our marriage was well on its way for divorce. The court date had been set, and it looked like that would be our future. One day my husband came over to drop the kids off, and things were really strange between us. I could tell he had a lot on his mind, and I asked him if we could pray together. He said yes. We went into the bedroom and sat down criss-cross apple sauce style on the floor. I grabbed his hands, and together, we bowed our heads. I began to pray the Lord’s Prayer, and words began to flow; he prayed over us as well. We said our Amens and talked a little about life, and he went on his way. We didn’t know this would be the beginning of our marriage turning around. One opportunity to pray together, One very powerful prayer, One very powerful God!!!!!!